what would you do? if you had to choose
Friday, October 12, 2007
synopsis of the week.. hehe.. and its the weekend!!
Monday, October 8, 2007
~~~~rain on me~~~~
hey all thanks for the comments!!! love u all hehe..
Wednesday
Thursday
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
tingling sensations!
well friday was a blast!!! yay i went to a bar and got drinks and just had some serious fun!!! it was great ... i was with keisha sanny and jody.
heres a little background.. keisha was orginally lusting after me but at that point i didnt want a girlfriend and she kept pushing it so i would just fool around with her.... no no not sex but we were really sexual with each other... follow... ok good! yea keisha and saNNy are friends and keisha intro sanny to me and sanny likes me a lot like , like me like me but we are just good friends that and i'm also sexual withher... but with boundries... and jody and i are friend and i introduce jody to keisha and now they are dating seriously!! yep got all that... good!
well yea we all were at the bar and it was all fun, dancing and drinking and having a good time... had to leave a bit early cuz i have to get up early next morning for studying and dancing... i know how to have fun but i got my PRIORITIES straight....lol all in all it was fun!
yea on saturday i studied alot im so happy but still not satisfied... and then i went dancing.. it was great as usual.. but dang i need to strengthen my core... seriously! my ab muscles suck... well not totally but its not where i want it to be u know... i mean a lean mid-section is good but for me it has to be strong too ;-). then i went to chill by sanny for a while... come on naughty i called her.. lol yea cuz even tho i was on my period.. chica was still trying to get in my shorts...i know rite!! i had to like do some serious resisting in watever way i could... but after a while i left b4 i got raped.. lol nah for real man mami was pressuring me..
sunday went to church..**angel smile**.. yea i always go to church.. on sunday i would rarely miss it... then studied alot and got my self ready for stinky moday morning
well monday was singlely the most stressing day of my work life ever! i had a really bad day yesterday damn!!.. even when sanny call me i could hardly talk to her i was totally out of it... but omg!!!! omfg!!! guess who i saw STACY... yep my ex-g/f stacy.. yea she was with her b/f .. we hugged cuz im always happy to see stacy .. she was all like omg u look so great.. in my head im like shes acting like this is the first time she saw me in years she saw me last month.. lol yea .. a little background on stacy..( yea she absolutely amazing!! nothing wrong with her at all shes hot shes funny sweet talented .. and everything... wondering why we broke up??? well back then we were 2 much of divas to be together her life was fast, busy and hectic.. my life was faster, hectic and busy... we just had no time for it to work... so yea.. we just saw each other whenevr we could... can i tell u amazing sex!!... lol after all this ill tell u one sexual encounter;-) yea in the end i decided i always want her in my life.. and she said ofcourse too.. but she said she could never be with any other girl.. so she swore of our kind and went with a guy instaed.. yea i know sad.. but we both moved on...)
well after that long day ended i went home and sanny call me to see if i was alrite..(how sweet) yea and then i went jogging with her.. atleast something good came out of that day.. excercise.. yes!! still wanna loose 5-10lbs for this yr...
Friday, September 28, 2007
week end!!!
yea sucks for me and you know why... this damn thing called the period!! man i hate it.. seriously if i had the money i'd get these darn things removed... or maybe just find someway to stop my period.. honestly.. well the upside is i get no cramps or any bull like that so ..mm its ok i guess.. anyway enough about stinky periods:-( stayed home yesterday from work... yay for me! well on the first day of my period i don't like to go to work.. i'm such a bitch on that day! lol so i studied alot.. so proud hehe
well like lastnight sanny calls me up rite..(sanny is my friend...and shes coo)l we hook up sometimes(i.e.sex) yea we were talking lastnight bout lots a stuff and she like oh my moms going to the country for the weekend and i could come over and have all the crazy 'fun' (by fun u know.. hehe) i want... in my head i dive off a cliff head first!! but out of my mouth came i can't hun my period's here.. i think she blew herself up in her head the way she was acting...lol she was more upset than me over my period... she was like " oh man thats not fair... yadda yadda...i really wanna get naughty with you...." and the rest i'll keep to myself for my personal amusement... kidding i just feel a little embarassed by what she was saying.. things like you get me so hot and your like the best sex i have ever had and i'm really good in bed and know exactly what a woman wants and how she wants and so on... i don't know i just feel funny when ppl go on like that.... am i weird??
anyway all in all i'm gona be chillin with her at the house.. cuz she says she wants and like my company... so i will cuz she's good company too...
today i don'y have any plans but i'll just going with the moment..! let y'all know how it went
i'm gona study from 7am saturday till around 1pm then swing by her(sanny) and stay till 5pm then leave and go to play pool with mark and couple other chicks that i think are super!(chrissy, stacey,diane, lushane and sarah.. 2 of these girls were the ones i had the 3some with the other day) then by 9pm im back at candice and then by 12 midnight or there about i'll be home.
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
......... ramblings
is it just me or society tend to determine what is accepted or not accepted. what is to be or not to be, what is right and what isn't.. ok are we drones in the society that are program to do what the majority does.. lol just a thought
so i was chilling with myfriends at our regular pool place.. which is my friends chrissy house lol
yea so we are there and otherppl are there too.. so cris this guy who's reallly cool was playing pool so wanted a game... i won! well duh crisis what we call a 'face boy'. as in he only looks good but does nothing good.
i was on the couch at one point and my friend mark and i were talking and he asked me (he's str8 by the way) 'what is it about women that turns u on so?'... in my head i'm like what the fuck is this... i mean is hould ask him the same question lol.. but hey i felt like humoring him.... so upon telling him my thoughts on the question.... i gained a friend....she says she not a lesbian or bi.. she says shes str8 lol but yet she wants me to dance with her and kiss herand touch her in ways that might be deamed 'lesbian like'. but hey i was just having funa dn so was she.. its ok wit me!
WHAT IS IT ABOUT WOMEN???
Monday, September 24, 2007
making progress
FOOD(**ICK**)
anyway haven't eaten since friday and it feels good to be empty!!.. well i dont wanna go back to i.p for sure.. that's a scary ass place. that why ill just loose for now like another 5-10 ponds.. (that would make me around 90.. not bad.. man i'm never staisfied.. sometmes i think i'm cursed)and cool it so my mom doesn't freak out and then when i go off to university i can do what the hell i want!! i mean seriously they just don't understand.. u know that fear u get when u watch a really scary movie or when u have walk down a dark alley by yourself.. thats how i feel about food and eating it and all that yuck in my body .. it's just not rite... i'm not asking for much i just want it off!! just oof and never come back(it= fat) i'm sorry i wont make this post about my e.d. i have another blog for that. where i get more in depth.
WEEKEND ACTION
Well my week end started off pretty lame.. and upseting.. had nothing to do on a friggin friday night!! equals lame.. i didnt feel like going anywhere anyway..lol
love a nice butt!
so sunday rolls around and i went with my friend to the one of the same chicks house
we played taboo!!! my fav! haha...anyway we like playing and others playing dominoes and cards
say a bout 12-15 ppl there..
some how i just dont know how really(**lying**) lol
i ended up upstairs..it was really hot tho.. i went upstais with one of the chicks lets call her S.
yea we were kissing for a long time and touching and it was just steamy
loved it!
and like omg she slapped my ass! lol i like it ..
so we are getting it on and like in 2 secs we are butt naked and all upon each other
i think we came back with everyone like around 9pm lol
i know! i left the game at 2pm
mm well 2-9pm is minor.. to me.. i should have been staying the whole night..
but i have work in the morn!!(**pissed**) lol
I HAVE TO STUDY. S.A.TS COMING UP FAST..
Friday, September 21, 2007
SAME COURSE NEW ACTIONS
FOOD&WEIGHT